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OMG! is this what’s going to happen to me????
The last two weeks have been a crazy wonderful blur. I really wanted to jump on here sooner and share so many things with all of you, but wee little Marcus and I are taking some quality time to get to know each other. Everyday he is learning more and more about being a baby and I am learning more and more about being a mommy. I am excited for you all to read our next newsletter about Marcus’s Halloween arrival. But in the mean time I want to thank you all for the amazing messages and all the love everyone has been sending out to MTV. hahaha! and NO! I soooo didnt not realize (until my mom pointed it out) that Marcus’s initials are MTV. Lets hope the kids in school go easy on him :).
Lots of Love!
Kendra and Marcus
YAY!!! I got this message from Kendra this morning:
Little Marcus Terry Voth joined the world on Halloween. 8lbs 1oz…
Kendra is doing fine! Full of joy and in awe of the child birth process that women go through. More to post from one of us with lovely photos and maybe a more personal story from Kendra herself. Hang tight, through the weekend at least.
OMG! 3 MORE DAYS UNTIL MY DUE DATE! Besides the fact that I cant see my feet anymore, my left foot looks like an alien innovator, there is what appears to be a leg sticking out the side of my stomach, I cant sleep, I cant sit, I cant stand and I gotta pee every two minutes, all is well, and I am uber excited for the arrival of EXTRA LITTLE, who clearly is EXTRA BIG now.
Oh did I mention that my hips are being forced apart by a human head getting ready to embark down the birth canal, which I imagine must be something like going head first down a big huge water slide. My legs are like two dead weights, I HAVE NO MUSSCLES to lift them, there seems to be a babies body in the way!
My gal pals warned me that the last few weeks of pregnancy were going to be a wee bit uncomfortable. WEEEEE!??? I say….WEEE?! At this point I am fully possessed by this adorable little impostor that doesn’t seem to want to join us here in the world.
So, me and Extra Little (BIG) had a little discussion yesterday, I was like “Extra, its time to come out, I am evicting you form my womb now, come on out, we want to meet you.” Extra responded with a swift kick to the ribs, ahhhh but I caught that wee little foot and poked it back in there…first mother-child disagreement. Feisty little thing in there is always up to something, all hours of the day…must be some sort of going away party happening in there.
The suspense is killing me and I honestly cant wait to meet this new little being that is going to be joining our life! Only days left to go hopefully! Yippi! I will keep you all posted!
I just HAD to share this dream with all of you. I slept in late toady, to 8am oooo sooo late hahahaha! But I was having the most VIVID baby dream and would love to try to piece what it means together. Anyone wanna help?
OK…so…here is goes…Terry and I are driving in a car (not sure what kind of car, seemed comfortable), ALL OF A SUDDEN my big belly starts to flatted out…there was NO PAIN or PANIC, it just kinda felt weird. It actually felt very peaceful and calm.
Then I felt a tingling above my public bone and watched my belly bump move down, down, down…then within a matter of minutes I saw the babies head, there was no pain, but a cute little baby head sticking out, looking back at me. Then came the shoulders and within minutes I was holding the baby in my arms. The baby came out with ease, I took off my shirt and placed the baby on my chest and the baby started to nurse all by itself.
I look over at Terry, who was calm driving the car. Then….I look back to the baby and the baby is now a black and white baby goat, in my dream this was not odd or shocking or anything, it was simply just a baby goat nursing. Then I woke up….CRAZY right?!!!
I wonder if this means the baby is on the way???
ps I love this family picture of Extra Little Terry and I, thank you to Winica for taking such beautiful photos!
I spent most of yesterday reflecting on my emotions, as I had been teary for the past 48 hours. I wanted to see if I could really get in touch with what was going on for me. HORMONES! Maybe?!
I am not sure if through this whole pregnancy I have REALLY, REALLY connected with the whole experience of being a human incubator and being a NEW PARENT. Imagine having on your TO DO LIST: incubate baby, learn to be a parent. Don’t laugh at me! Yes, these things appear on my internal TO DO LIST…I am nutty that way.
But here’s what I think brought on the tears, besides just hormones. I am learning to let go of control, and slowly realizing that I am vulnerable. Vulnerable, meaning, open to any possibility or situation and being open and able to accept help when I need it. Being vulnerable is a VERY SCARY thing for me. You can’t put, incubate a baby and learn to be a parent, on a TO DO LIST! It’s one of those things that you learn and experience along the way. You can’t control it. I can’t control it. CAN SOME TELL THAT TO MY SUBCONSCIOUS! Ok, look, if my brain and my subconscious can’t get along one of them is going to be sent to their room until they can play fair…hahahaha!
Now I know all this anti-control stuff intellectually, but I think the concept is integrating itself fully into my body and I am on the verge of having a major AHA! Moment, hence all the tears. The tears seem to reflect me working through the scary part of that.
My brain says, “I can’t control the world or even predict what might happen, I could go into labor at any moment. Ready or not, Extra Little could come flying out and that’s ok.”
My Subconscious says, ‘OMG I can’t control the world or even predict what might happen? I could go into labor at any moment. Ready or not, Extra Little could come flying out and, and, and…its NOT ok!
“Why is THAT sooo scary?” Asks Brain
Subconscious replies…because the Nursery isn’t done, I haven’t tied up loose ends, I haven’t completed all my goals, everything isn’t in “perfect” order, I haven’t planned every single little detail of my life, I haven’t read every book and, and, and….!
Then my dad calls at the perfect time and says, (what my brain would say) “Kendra, what’s the worst thing that could happen?” I laughed, I say this to people all the time…and here my Dad is saying it to me. It’s a great question, one of my favorites!
Then I sat with all these thoughts and wondered if my fear is really not about NOT BEING ABLE, but instead is about BEING ABLE, able to handle anything that comes my way no matter how hard it is. Does that make sense? Then I woke up this morning and read an email from SUPERSMITTE a GBD member who shared this quote. I know and love this quote as well and wanted to share it with you.
A quote by Marianne Williamson:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that
we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most
frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of
God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing
enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around
you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make
manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us;
it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give
other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own
fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Well Extra Little isn’t sooo little these days…we had a 3D ultra sound done yesterday and WOW! Soooo cute and well…kinda alien like…but soooo cute! The ultra sound shows Extra Little is now about 6lbs 2oz..I was like, WHAT!? Extra still has around 6 weeks to bake and OMG! how much will Extra little grow from now until then? I mean HELLO Extra Little needs to make it out of a hole the size of a quarter :).
I honestly cant believe how fast the time is flying by…between Kristin and I our spare time has been spent shopping for puppy stuff, baby stuff, puppy potty training and planning baby showers…I cant believe ALL the things puppies and babies need…hahahaha!
Baby Registries, puppy schooling, car seats, doggy beds, strollers, doggy car harness, cribs, puppy chow, Onzies (do you know what that is?), baby bath tubs and the list goes on and on and on… but FUN times!
I think all females have this innate instinct to nurture and love, I have never felt so at peace, yet it’s a side of myself that I never fully recognized before, it was always there and present, but the sense of inner peace was in disguise…then I get a good kick OUCH! in the ribs by Extra Little that sense of inner peace turns into inner pain…hahaha! What am a rambling about? Not really sure…might just be baby brain…or it could be that I am starting to see the joy in the little things in life…and how those little things truly shape my life…the joy in watching Kristin’s new puppy explore and experiment to watching legs and feet stick out of my belly…these are the things that I would miss if I didnt take a moment to stop and see them…those moments are happening all the time, do you stop and see them in your life?
Kendra and Extra Little.